Thanks I have reduced obsessing over labels and reading about bipolar and OCD. Partly because I think the meds are working and helping me focus and I saw my PDoc Friday who reminded me to focus on getting balance and sleep.

I do need to talk though. I seem to be having extrapyramidal effects from the antipsychotics in that I walk like a zombie, as in shuffle, and have BAD Charley horses / spasms / cramps in my legs from the knees down. I am bit irritated with both primary care and PDoc as both want to put this off on the other and all I want is relief. I think the meds are working and do not want to stop them, just want the pain in my feet and legs to stop!

I am not sleeping well yet. I fall asleep great and sleep 2-3 hours, then am either awake to stay or go back to sleep only to keep waking up every 2 hours or so. I have been getting up at 4am even on weekends. I am NOT a morning person but have turned into one lately. Freaks out my normally AM person spouse, who likes it but knows it is NOT me.

Now, my spouse and family. I think I am making them crazy with all this. However, I do wish they would stop picking and choosing what they think I am doing that is bipolar or OCD to suit themselves. I am me, much of who I am was made by the bipolar and the OCD but not everything I do is pathologic!!!

I also feel flat, zombie like. Not sure if this is depression or the meds but NOT liking this. I took this week off from work because I need the break. They are not leaving me alone. Long story.