Once again I am starting to think my problem isn't a mental illness- I just suck as a human. I am so wrapped up in my own mind that I am terribly selfish and find it so hard to reach out to people. I have zero sex drive, and haven't for so many years- my husband isn't happy with it and I'm about to tell him it's fine if he just gets it elsewhere. I don't even care anymore. As far as sex- it just seems too intimate- I don't want anyone touching me.

I have no interest in my kids lives and lately have been working more nights just so I don't have to be home because I feel like I am a negative force in the house.

I have fooled around with other married men and my main concern is if people found out my life as I know it would be ruined (he is my manager). I do awful things and then punish myself for doing them.

I sometimes feel like I have no soul- I'm just empty inside. And I fear that this is just me. This is how I am. It's like I have no feelings.