I have to say thank you for talking to me this few days , I really need to talk to someone outside my family as I talk to my mom about my marriage problems but she just says " well do you think I am happy with my husband " ( step dad )
She even offer to come with me once her husband passes away ...

When my husband and I fight ( yell at each other ) we are like two tornadoes then after the storm last about 1-2 days then everything goes back to normal , not fix but normal .

I don't want to leave him heck I want him to come with me and the kids . That is what I really want , But then he reminds me how unstable I am and it really pisses me off because I know I need meds. and right now it's not working because I am just starting on them in a low dose . Going on a higher mg on thursday .

I guess I just needed to vent I feel better today then the other day and I sleep back in the bed last night and we talked not about the problems just general stuff , so the silent treatment is over at lest for now until the next fight .

This is why our marriage has lasted we fight then move on until he brings it up again then we fight ..crazy . This is not a normal marriage but it seems to work or I am just in a delusnal state of mind .

But thank you , you helped me I am calmer and not ready to go out the door .