It sounds to me as if you think you know what's best for you. But do you?

Sometimes, when we're damaged in some way, we think we know what will fix it. But we're not correct, in fact we can be WAY off...For example (a very simplistic example, but it makes my point) let's say my left foot is causing me incredible pain. To me, the way to get rid of the pain, is to cut off my foot. But a doctor may examine my foot and come to the correct conclusion that it's origin is neurological. My foot doesn't need to come off, my brain needs a tumor removed.

I don't know if this makes any sense, but we don't always know what's best. The things we think might make us happy, might not be good for us at all.

You may have specific bad experiences with women, but it could be that something in your subconscious seeks out women who will give you a bad experience.

As I have said, these are just ideas that may not apply to you. They are, however, true and valid points.

I think you are most wise to have the knowledge that you need to get yourself to a more stable place before considering a relationship. But that doesn't mean that you can't drop your preconceived notions, expectations, and assumptions, and enjoy ONE evening with a woman without thinking she has an agenda.