What sucks about the hole deal is I'm in diapers for the most part because the urges are so sudden and fast I can't make it to the bathroom. I take it in stride. It really doesn't suck... I have gotten used to it and I don't let it bother me, but it was an adjustment to say the least. It really got ahold my depression and nose dived it for a bit, but I was able to pull myself out of it without adding meds or therapy. Overall things are good, but I wish we could figure out what is wrong or what happened. Hopefully its meds, but if not and this is a life long issue, I will just take it for what it is, and move on and live life.