I have not been on much lately. I had been getting ready for a trip to Disney World and other stuff that was planned. It went well.

Now we are back Im blah. Nothing to work towards I have not been to the gym in 6 weeks. As most of you know that is no me. I need go today. Its seems all I am doing is coasting. I want to sleep all the time and Im tired of cleaning this house. Getting out and doing things seems more like a chore.

Im considering volunteering for the Red Cross. I looked at jobs and what Im looking for is just not right for me. (Im blessed to be able to be picky) Ive read up on good jobs for Bi-polars in hopes I will stay at one place longer. I wonder who would want me? I feel broken, worn out, and psycho.

Anyway I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow to see my p-doc. I dont want anymore meds. Ive had enough of the pill -go -rounds and the nightly " holy cow I have to take all that to keep going?"