well see what u just said proves u have a soul ..............u hurt from the actions

someone with no soul would not care .......and done alot worst (blackmail robbery tieing the guy up and taken photos then walk away leaving him there) that is evil stuff ............u feel bad about what little things u did u got a soul

and as for worring about him saying anything well he can not he would lose his job .........the sheer fact u work under him makes it a no no in most place (opens up the place to lawsuits) so they would can his *** in a sec ....then when ever he tried to get a new job and they contacted the old one they would tell them why was let go unless they sign a contract no to talk about it from some kind of settlement .........he will lose more then u .......so that fear should be less then u have

the rest of it ........lady u should really see a doctor and talk with them ..........if this is something u do not want the family to know about until u are little stable and able to handle it then tell them u are signing up for a Yoga class and use that time to go and see the doctors

once u feel up to it sit your guy down and tell him whatz going on ..........u guys got kids and he has stuck around with no sex so u know he loves u .........odds are he is hurting too because u are and has no idea what to do to fix it (guys are fixers and we can not do anything to help we freak out little)