I found out today I'm pregnant with a girl and feel utterly disappointed, and like a bad person for feeling so. I was expecting a boy, and have always preferred to be around males. I feel like I'm not capable of connecting with females, even though I am one. I know this is irrational, but I blame my mother since she was extremely emotionally abusive, mean, and crazy. I'm paranoid my daughter will turn out like her, that I will turn out like her. I felt that with a son it was a guarantee my child would love me, but I feel like my daughter will hate me. I was looking forward to taking my son to sports etc., I have no idea how to engage in girly things, I was never girly myself. I'm not looking for someone to tell me what an awful person I am, as I know already.