Hi StillIRise, welcome to the PTSD forum. I am so sorry you are struggling so much right now, I know the stage you are discribing, it's hard. What helped me is when I was experiencing it and it was really getting dangerous, someone told me to pay attention to the fact that while it does get strong, it also goes away. I did pay attention and noticed that about it, so, I learned to hang on and yes some days were bad. This stage "will" ease up, and I definitely recommend that you take advantage of the help from this psychiatrist/therapist, even if you have to go "inpatient" again.

You can definitely gain on this challenge even though right now it feels so hopeless, it takes time and patience, but you can actually work through this and make gains on it so you "can" be a mommy again and you "are" worth it. I wanted to give up too, but now looking back, I am so glad I kept hanging on and worked through it because my daughter needed me and would have been devastated and confused had I not.

You are actually "lucky" that you have a good therapist now too, please take advantage of that and keep letting him help you, he knows you can do better too and that is why he is trying to help you, so let him help you.

Don't give into the feelings of hopelessness or being a burden either, acknowledge that you feel that, but don't feed into it, I promise this phase of the PTSD will slowly go away and you can keep doing better.

You are welcome to come here any time you need to, others can relate and we will do our best to support you so you can get past this hard part ok?

((Gentle Caring and Welcoming Hugs)))
OE