Hello Everyone,

No, it's not night terrors. It happens all hours of the day and night, not just in bed. I can be sitting at my computer wide awake and will suddenly feel my privates being fondled or feel my bottom being touched and such. So I know it isn't something I am dreaming, or waking up half asleep.

With sleeping, it's not just the ghosts making it hard. I also have PTSD. So if it isn't the ghost, it's a nightmare of waking me up. But today I am hoping for some good news. I finally got into contact with a medium 4 hours drive from me, but she happens to come to my town from time to time. Her assistant got in contact with me yesterday saying the medium read my letter and knows exactly what's attacking me and how to get rid of it.

The problem is her rates. $300.00 a hour. I explained I was on disability and would need several months to save up that kind of money. She writes back saying she's going to give me a call today. Part of me is hoping because the attacks are life threatening cutting off my airway and effecting my heart that she will give a special rate. At the very least I hope she can tell me what the spirit is. I figure at least then I can do research on that type of spirit.

I am 90% sure she's going to tell me it's a succubus. A entity that gets energy from having sex with humans. Some I read about online are quite violent. One woman said one attacked her by physically holding her down to the bed, grabbing her breasts, kissing her and rape. Similar to mine, but that mine doesn't physical hold me down to the bed. Although it clearly has the ability.

Yesterday morning around 2am was a scary attack. Not because of the rape, but because of the level of power. The entity had the power to depress the mattress down to the support bar. As if someone was putting their knee on the mattress between my legs that weights 400 or so pounds. It was quite scary to feel the mattress be pressed down to such a far degree to hit the support bar. Which means the springs in the hospital bed were stretched WAY out to be able to touch the support bar.

So what worries me is if it can depress the mattress down so far, then it makes me wonder just what it can do to me if I really pissed it off in some way. But I think it doesn't want to kill me out right because they it couldn't rape me. In the end, I am hoping the medium calls today and is able to be of some help. I would gladly save up the 300 if it meant that I could be rid of this entity.

The other spirit is different. It's gentle and caring. During my nap yesterday he laid on the left side of the bed and was holding my arm stroking up and down my arm from my elbow to my shoulder part of my arm. He laid there for a good almost 2 hours. Then I felt him get up and leave.

Him I wouldn't mine hanging around, he doesn't harm me. But the other one does. I just want to go back to being able to be left alone. To lay down and be able to go to sleep without fear of being touched and stuff. I know you all don't know how to help, or even can relate. But I thank you for the support.

-Stanley