I have really bad depression. I guess people know about it. I see a psychotherapist every Tuesday and I have a school counsellor. The nurse at school is also like a counsellor to me. I'm going through a really bad time right now, and my emotions are so over whelming. My mother is horrible. She acts so fake around everyone but to me she's nasty. She hits me sometimes. Once I called the police and they were going to do something about it, but straight after they interviewed her, nothing happened. All she had to do is cry. I've decided to stand up for myself and go completely against her. I really do hate her. I've been staying with my aunty lately and it's not helping. My mother is constantly keeping tabs, always making out that she's nice and that she's the one that's hurt. Nobody understands. Somehow I'm being punished for something my mother has done. It feels like every grown adult hates me, because I'm causing my mum pain. What about me? Nobody asks my how I am. It's all about my mum. You see, I was adopted from Russia when I was 6. Louise who is my mum came from New Zealand to adopt me. I wish she never did. People don't understand how hard it is to have no one who is related to. I've missed out everything in my "family's" life. I'm sorry for just unloading. This is so hard. [emoji17]