This is a rough topic since it appears we all have these moments and thoughts. I must admit I had this exact thought in the last two hours and have been struggling with it. Feel like some of this could be our own mood or perception kicking in. Not sure. I know I reach out and many times no one answers I go to catastropizing immediately and that not their issue. It is mine. Perhaps this is something that can be looked at. Hope you feel better and in better place soon.