So... today has been a struggle and I needed to say that somewhere. I think I eat just fine and I'm around 60-75% of what I'm supposed to eat. Then I have days where I don't want to eat at all. This is mental torture. I'm trying to show that I can turn this thing around so I don't wind up in IOP somewhere. Thing is, I'm not so sure I can.

I know that my therapist and nutritionist were talking today and that has me a little freaked out too. I understand more than most why professionals need to collaborate. It is unsettling when I don't know exactly which way that conversation will go. Can you say control issues?

I need to find the ability to fight back and just eat the damn food already. It has way too much control over me right now.