I was sort of in crisis mode when I was placed on it. First, I wanted the off and on sui thoughts to cease. Next I wanted the mood swings not to change so rapidly. And, I was hoping I could deal/get along with people better in order to go back to my last line of work.

I don't feel as though valpotic acid (Depacote) has really improved any of those issues. I'm still alive, but that's about it. However, I'm no doctor snd am only a year into this , this time around.

When I first started Depacote, for 6-7 days straight, I felt like what I heard old hippies describe as an lsd trip. I could not stand it. I hated it. So much, that I seriously contemplated checking into a hospital. My line of thinking was this. I was just diagnosed with bipolar, I was having major anxiety over, I was mad at the world, and I thought, they've got me f'up on lsd. I struggled to not stop. I struggled to live. My life was, and still is, bad enough already without adding a heavy intoxicate to the mix. Back during the winter, I would also get real drowsy after taking it, but I had quit all caffeine too.

The tripping ended after a week. I have been taking it regularly for a year. I am terrified to stop it because if stopping it makes me feel the way I did when starting it, I absolutely think they should have me in a facility while stopping it. I struggled with it bad!

Take my story like a grain of salt. All meds affect people differently. It may be a really good medication. It hasn't improved my life at all. I'm kind of stuck with it presently, as I'm trying to acquire ssdi and medi whichever insurance so that I can see a psycologist. I've been unemployed for a while, and I'm receiving treatment free at my local mental health facility. It's free for me since I'm unemployed, so I hate to complain.