This morning I screamed at my girlfriend and was basically being an a-hole in general. It was so out of character of me. I can hardly remember what happened or what we were fighting about. The whole incident seems like a blur; like I wasn't in my body.

I had math class today and failed a big quiz. After that, something in me just clicked. On the drive home, I was incredibly tempted to run my car off the highway. But then 30 minutes later, I'm sitting down and doing homework and I suddenly felt better. Elated, joyful, and I just wanted to tackle every project I have going on.

These are just examples. I'm feeling manic tonight. I don't want to sleep. I'm thinking of pulling an all-nighter and get all my homework done. I don't work or class tomorrow, so tomorrow I'll just keep myself occupied and fall asleep at an appropriate time.

And sometimes, I just have no interest in anything. There are days when I don't even want to get out of bed. I would avoid going out with friends and be short with my girlfriend. I don't know if I'm bipolar, but I certainly change moods at the drop of a hat, and make terrible decisions.