Nothing you said gave me that impression. I just had a moment of feeling extremely helpless and like there is absolutely no help for me and no one knows anything to tell me how to get better.

I took DBT for 9 months, it was an intense program. I was going through serious turmoil during that time because of living with hostile family that didn't understand me. So how much I absorbed is questionable.

Why DO we attack and kick ourselves when we are so far down? I don't get that at all. I did force myself to get out of the house tonight, and maybe that helped. I so want to be able to go to my neighborhood Y and get involved in some exercise, maybe I would meet some people. I am just letting my anxiety keep me stagnant.

Also, maybe if I revisit DBT principles, I could adopt some of their practices. I lack self discipline for sure.

Thanks for the thoughts.