I totally relate to how you feel. I feel toxic and I want to go off my meds. They don't work anyway so why bother. I am crying all day and when I am not I want to punch someone in the face.
That said, I am still a nurse and I know enough about the physiology of the body to go slow with it even though I don't want to. I am talking to my Pdoc tomorrow about a taper off of one med. After that taper I will see where I am at and try another taper.
I want them all out. I want to have a clean slate. I don't know what med is doing what to me anymore.
I so totally feel your pain. I hope it gets better soon and I hope you come up with a solid plan.