Boy where to start. A little over two yrs ago i met woman i believe is my soul mate and true love. She also feels this way. When i look at her it feels like the world around us ceases to exist and all that matters is being with her. For the past few months we've been arguing almost every day about nothing. she had always talked about us getting married but i never talked to her about it till about 3 months ago. Then it turned into picking out baby names and even trying on engagement rings. A few weeks ago she told me we were over. She said she couldn't take the fighting anymore even though she still tells me she loves me. Then the following week we met for lunch and she tells me she'staken a job about 3 hrs away and she'll be moving there. We love each other very much. But we know this would mean the end of any hope.
Now the kicker!!
I'm 40 and married (no kids). She's 23. I know. I know. But it's just how things happened. Now part of the break up is because and she always has said that she could never be the reason i get a divorce. She's always been serious about that. she's also very close with hey family and says that her family would never accept our situation. And that really bothers her. She still tells me she loves me and that nothing has changed as far as us not being together. If we go a few days she doesn't hear from me she calls and says she misses me and just wanted to hear my voice. I don't understand how could she say she loves me, that we are soulmates and that this true love then turn around and shut me out when i told her that i wanted to be with only her. That i was giving in to everything she's been telling me she wants of us. I know we love each other very much and we are both very sad about this but she's adamant about not being together. This is her decision not mine.
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