My religious beliefs vary according to my moods. A few years ago i had a religious mania and went to church four times in one week! I just really liked Church. I'm depressed most of the time and don't go to church at all.
I've been officially atheist for most of my adult life. But i DO find the idea of God comforting so i allow myself to indulge in religious thoughts and prayers. I'm sure it seems contradictory or even hypocritical, but i put it this way: my rational self is an atheist, but my emotional self is a believer.
I was raised Roman Catholic and i really like mass. All the prayers that haven't changed since i was a kid and the joyous hyms, parables, ceremonies and rituals. I'm often manic in the Spring so it coincides with Easter -- such a fantastic time for church. It feels GOOD to thank God for good things that happen in my life. I think a lot of religious sentiment is really worthwhile. I take what i like and leave the rest.
I guess i am somewhat of a Convenient Catholic!
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