I did some hard thinking the past few hours. I have gotten ridiculously stressed out with caretaker responsibilities concerning my s/o, who is really more like an ex-boyfriend that I stayed friends with. I don't live with him, but I'm running over there constantly, providing care, when he could make more use of home help from the VA.

This past week, I got awful depressed. All the great progress I made from May till the end of summer and through September seemed to be going up in smoke. I do everything for this guy, and he's giving me a hard time. I come back from visiting him all upset.

I'm going to make fewer visits and I bet I can start feeling pretty good again. I'm feeling better right now, just making my mind up that I don't need someone playing me for a dope.