Well I can't really answer your question and unfortunately no one else on here can really either because that would be giving you possible false responses to something you're looking for.

Sounds like you're going through a tough time at the moment.

For me, my depression isn't "usually" triggered by anything external ... It creeps in gradually out of nowhere and can, but not always, follow a manic or hypomanic phase.

Normally when I'm hypo it will last at least a week to a few weeks and is a constant feeling and doesn't just randomly pop out at night.

Studies have shown the negative effects on the psychological wellbeing of teenagers who smoke weed, especially a predisposition to depression so I'm glad you've stopped that - only going to make your mood worse in the long run.

Is there any mental health professional that you can see about your concerns?

Be well.