Wow I feel for your anxiety.

I thrive on structure, stability and predictability so hats off to you for hanging in there for freelance writing!

I've noticed some really great writers here on the forum in the way they express themselves and the way that they write and I think wow what a gift some people have. So you're in a bit of a conundrum because you're good at what you do but you don't have a sense of "stability".

I'm a teacher by trade (currently not working) but really don't know if I'd cope with temp work not knowing where I'm going every day. I'd only manage short term 6-12 month contacts. I don't even think I should state this because it's stating the obvious but if you found a more "permanent" form of writing like for a newspaper or magazine would that be an option ........