I know what u mean...when I'm doing okay mentally I don't obsess but when I go down the rabbit hole it all comes back and I'm angry with the lack of family support and all the pain surrounding sex abuse and depression that my parents never acknowledge their part in the process which prevented me from getting help. I don't know how to prevent it other than staying as healthy as I can but that's hard too (Fibro & cardiac) You're NOT WEAK you're just sick.[emoji171]