I could of started this post as well!

What I have found.....
1. I can have a job I love or duties that are tolerable...but
many many times I do not grow to respect those I work with or
who are considered to be my superiors - and this happened
often in my life. I have a very good work ethic - and I am constantly
disappointed in others that barely try -so I expect nothing from
them - and I am surprised and happy when they come through.

2. I cannot change others - I can change my view, reaction or job.

3. I am very confident of my abilities - so I work as a independent contractor..
is this hard to do - yes! Do I still struggle financially at times - yes. I'm I happier - yes.

You have to learn what is best for you. You have us to talk to. I have a 3 friends I trust and who understand me and I understand them- 2 live out of the state. The other is very busy with her family - but when we do have time together - it's wonderful. I treasure my phone converations w/my friends. The mutual love and respect is there even if we do not get to see eachother.

I feel your pain - if you start a plan to get out - you might start feeling better on a daily basis - knowing you will be able to get out.

Good luck!