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Old Oct 22, 2014, 11:13 AM
Avisince86 Avisince86 is offline
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Originally Posted by AS6855 View Post
I've been having a hard time lately but my partners have been really supportive (I'm poly).

My partner said he is really proud of me but he hates that I put myself down so much because I self-sabotage and the only one who doesn't think I am doing well is me. He says that I have come a long way since he met me 5 years ago.

My bf said that I don't appreciate my achievements because I am looking at the next one. He says that I have grown immensely as a person since he met me 3 years ago.

I just keep forgetting how much trouble I used to have and take for granted what I am able to do now.

Examples are: I used to not be able to go in kitchens, I have been washing dishes recently.
Apparently I used to get super uncomfortable when my bf was standing in the bathroom doorway talking to while I was washing my hands. I'm so ok with him standing next to me now that I forgot I used to have that problem.
I didn't think I could ever have a full-time job and I have held one for almost a year.
I can now hug certain people, and I'm fine squeezing in on couches or just sitting on anyone's lap, as opposed to not being able to have anyone close enough to touch me.

I know I am not alone in giving myself crap for how I am. I need to remember that I have come a long way. And that I can go further. But I also need to remember to stop and appreciate my strength.

I constantly give myself a hard time. I know I work hard, but if I even fall a little short of my goal, I feel like a complete failure to the point where I can't even look my boyfriend in the face. It is a process, I know that I can one day see that I am a better person, and maybe with talking to people here, it can help. I just hope that in some way it helps knowing someone out there can relate..I hope that in due time, you see that you have made great strides from your previous years
Thanks for this!
AS6855