Oh I am so soryy that you are having a really difficult time at the moment. With the move, the stress of a new job, your marriage and your cat dying not to mention all the day to day stuff that you have to get through. Maybe you may need to go on meds for a while, have you thought about that?. Have you thought of looking elsewhere foe a job, somewhere that would be both agreeable for you and your husband. My thoughts are with you and I do hope that you see your therapist really soon.

Best wishes