LOL... I think I just like feeling sorry for myself. I don't like being angry much at all... it just takes too much energy.... I've got better things to do with my time (although I can arouse my anger when necessary). I tend to think "what the hell did I do to deserve this?"... the answer? "maybe they just don't like me, and want me to feel bad about myself".

I know in the situations I have in mind... I literally did nothing to the person in question.... so the issue must be that they have decided that they don't like me, and there isn't much I can do about that.

Sometimes, it almost feels like a threat. like they're thinking "you better figure out why it is we don't like you and change... or you'll get more of this". To which I would reply "why don't you go bother someone else". But, perhaps I'm just reading too much into it.