You are not alone. I tend to feel this way as well. A lot. I hope you are doing something for you, like therapy or medication management or both. I don't know what I would do without it. Just starting up with a new therapist but it's good to know you have that resource. That person to go to if everyone else seems busy. It sounds like you need that too. And there are even online services too if you live in an area where a lot of mental health resources are not available. Not saying you have to, just wanting to offer some ideas.