Hi tired of this,

Sounds like your last year has been full of ups and downs. Moving away from family, no matter the age, is a big step to take. And I'm thinking moving to another city or state. Depending on how close you or your spouse were with family in your hometown it can be a huge life adjustment, because talking on the phone is never the same as talking in person. Okay that's my opinion, I am sure there are those would disagree with me.

With all these changes, including losing a furry loved one, it's a lot to process. And especially on your own. You seem like a very caring and considerate person who thinks about others feelings. Show yourself the same compassion, because you are deserving, you really are. Can you be open with your spouse about these anxieties you have? I understand why you feel trapped, especially since it sounds like you bought a house because that is a big commitment but maybe that is something you can work on together? Hope you are ok.