Hi Yis,

There's lots of very serious stuff in your post: coma, rape, exes, hallucinations, restraining orders. I can't guess what happened and if I knew I probably wouldn't know what to advise except that it sounds to me like you need help from someone you trust. That someone is supposed to be your therapist, I suppose. If you're seeing your new one tomorrow I hope you can give him/her a chance. It is very very likely that they have your interests at heart and it's likely they have the wisdom that comes from seeing similar struggles.

Whatever else is going on, I do have the impression that you're depressed. When I was depressed, I was hyper-sensitive to any implicit slight or criticism or condescending comment. If that's going on, it can be very easy to get into a loop where you get angry, people then withdraw or offer condescending advice, you get angrier, they withdraw further, ...etc. etc.

- v