... o ... I just found something I am interested in!
first I was happy. now it gets me down because I found a reason I can't do it. should I try anyway or is it stupid to pursue something that will potentially cause stress?
this happened so many times before. nothing is simple. or at least most things are complicated. from now I will just imagine everything was simple....

the other day I tried to make a cup of coffee and I failed 4 times because I did something wrong at something so simple as cooking coffee. the 5th cup was okay.
life is exhausting.