Thank you everyone for your wonderful replies. I'm not thinking about it as much....but when I do think about him, I get sad again. There's been another new development since I last posted. I got a letter from the IRS saying that my tax refund is going directly to an old school loan. So I'm sending back the check my dad gave me. I won't be able to pay him back now, and I just can't explain that I'm not getting my tax refund. Its not worth further ridicule. So....not sure whats gonna happen without that money, but anything's better then getting more flack from him.