Sounds to me like you might be gender questioning. In 'The Transexual Phenomenon' Dr Harry Benjamin writes that transexualism is a sliding scale. You can be more or less trans, it's not the case that you either are or aren't. I'm somewhat trans myself, genetically male with some feminine traits. I suggest you seek out a therapist with experience in gender issues. For myself I have decided not to live as a woman 24/7. I occasionally crossdress and that relieves the gender dysphoria