well, it's me again... haven't been here for awhile. I'm not sure of what to do with my marriage. maybe I could get some advice....
I got married for 2 reasons:
1: the man I fell in love with seemed to be my Prince charming when we fell in love. 2: I didn't want to be alone, wrong reason, I know! My husband came at a time when I was with someone that wasn't treating me right. He was my Prince charming coming to the rescue, my salvation. I loved this man sooo much because he was very family oriented which I loved and he was very sweet that I thought he was perfect. That dream ended quickly. Our whole wedding should of been the first sign of a bad marriage in the making. He wanted to pay for everything, didn't want help from anyone and I basically didn't involve my family (parents) at all in the wedding. I wanted a Cinderella wedding and instead got a wedding where I cried down the isle because of different issues I was having with my parents. (Whole nother story) Long story short, my husband makes all the decisions. He tries to say he lets me make decisions in our relationship but if deciding where I wanna go eat out is making the decisions, then, that's pretty much the only decision I make. Everything else comes from how he feels and if I don't agree with something, he tells me " there the door, if you don't agree with my decision, leave!!!!" This is his way of controlling everything because he knows I'm not going to leave my kids, we have 3. He tells me I can't take the car because he pays for it and threatens to take the kids from me. He's told me to go to hell, he's disrespected my parents alot. But the type of person I am, I can't stand up for myself and i can't stand up for my parents. I just don't have the balls too!!! Plain and simple!!!! He is a good dad and works very hard to pay the bills but I'm just not sure if I'm happy with him because my dad says I deserve better. I'm sooo lost right now..... my dad told me to stand up to him but I'm afraid if I do he'll show me the door and we'll have issues, possibly divorce. I don't want to be alone, but sometimes I do think I deserve to get treated better.