Hi. I'm new to the forum. I came here to talk about feelings of guilt I've been having over something terrible I did to my sister a few months ago that I'm having trouble overcoming.

First, I'll give some background. My older sister (10 years older) and I have a very rocky relationship and the rest of my family doesn't get along with her either. She is addicted to pills and alcohol, is verbally and sometimes physically abusive, and hasn't held a job in over 8 years. She's called me a b1tch, dyke, c-word, etc. She harasses my parents and grandparents regularly. She's had multiple arrests for public drunkenness, doctor shopping, receiving stolen property, filing false reports, DUI, etc. Sometimes she leaves me abusive drunken voicemail messages and texts. I can't block her number because Net10 won't allow me to and I really don't want to switch service providers just so she won't bother me anymore.

So anyway, earlier in the year, she sent me some bizarre photos of herself. One was a naked photo of just her body laying on a bed. The other one was her wrapped in a Nazi swastika flag and wearing a Nazi hat but with her breasts and upper body exposed. The third one was her laying naked on her stomach on top of the flag. I've held the same job for about 4 years so I always tell my coworkers about her antics. A few months ago, I was hanging out with 3 coworkers outside of work. The topic of my sister came up, so I showed them the photos to illustrate her absurd behavior and we all laughed. It didn't hit me until recently that what I did was very, very wrong. Just because she sent nude pics to me, that didn't give me the right to show them to anyone else. The whole celebrity nude photo leak with Jennifer Lawrence is what really made me think about it. I'm single right now, but if I had been in a relationship with a man and he sent me nudes, I wouldn't have dared show them to anyone and I would have respect for his privacy. But because I don't respect my sister or even like her, and because she bragged about showing the pics to men in bars, I somehow felt it was ok. But I know now that it is not ok and I feel ashamed. I have since deleted the photos from my phone and vowed to never do something like that again, but I can't get over the guilt and forgive myself. It has been gnawing at me for weeks. How could I have done something so reprehensible? I think this is the absolute worst thing I've ever done to someone. Can anyone help?