Well in terms of the last year, my sense of identity has really taken a blow. Since this "change" of attraction, over the last 3 years, I lost my business, lost my home, was homeless for 18 months, went through a ton emotional abuse, went back to college for a career change, and during college got diagnosed with a serious and rare neurological disorder.

The other problem I'm wondering about is that the bulk of my "looking" has been online - but that has always been the case. Part of me wonders if it's because I'm coming off as desperate (because let's face it ladies, if you're 33 years old, you do have an expiration date in terms of having kids).

The other part is that I don't really know if I want marriage and the white picket fence. There are times I honestly feel like I am from another planet. I am highly spiritual. I have been waiting till marriage (if you catch my drift), I don't drink or do recreational drugs. At the same time, I am not into mainstream religion. It's all very confusing.

I don't know. Years ago I used to know who I am. Now, it's anybody's guess.