So I'm trying to understand myself and my emotions better. Most of the time I feel like I have none. No thoughts, no emotions, except constant boredom (it's been my "friend" since childhood, it rarely seems to leave). However, when I do feel emotions, they seem like they may be very intense. Often they're short-lived, but still strong.

Examples: The other day I was talking to a representative at the admissions office at the college I go to and he tells me there's nothing I can do to change a hold on my account. Normally someone would just be disappointed, I was pissed, stormed out, walked around the school nearly panicking, but then went straight back to feeling calmer again.

Also today a memory hit me (I think we were talking about a certain type of memory in intro to psych), and in this one I remembered that I usually walked home with a friend of mine, but on this day she wasn't there, so I walked home experiencing my first panic attack.

I don't know if that is a normal reaction or if something else may actually be going on?

Like I said, usually I feel like I have no emotions, no thoughts, that there isn't much there, but then I react seemingly intensely to certain things. I don't know if that would mean something is going on, because most issues make it sound like the strong emotions are long lasting.

This is probably a confusing post........... They're probably normal (*cringe*)reactions anyways.