I've been on lexapro since mid June and Wellbutrin for 2 1/2 weeks. Pdoc put me on Wellbutrin to counter the lethargy from the lexapro. She can't lower lexapro to mg cuz it makes me extremely SUI.

I've til Pdoc I'm getting the best sleep of my life yet I still wake all the time. Even as a child I only slept between 3 and 5 hrs a night. When I got to high school it was even less and then college I went days without sleeping or only sleeping an hr or 2. She mentioned bipolar when I started seeing her but not everything fits. I just really need to know what going on before it drives me to lose my mind. There's always questions and questions but I need answers. There's never any answers only more questions. What am I? Where do u fit? T least somewhere to start other than anxiety and depression cuz obviously knowing that has changed nothing. I take the meds I go to therapy I try to fix it but I feel unfixable.

I can't play this guessing game forever. I keep going to Pdoc every 6 weeks now it's 3 weeks. This is expensive I don't have money to keep doing this. I don't have a disposable income. I just need answers. I feel like I'm not getting better and I'm dragging my wife and her family down with me. I feel like I'm losing everything again and I won't survive that loss this time. I'm just in this perpetual cycle that I can break. I'm depressed all the time except once every now and then I feel great. I like those times where it feels like everything will be ok. Those days I get so much done. I need those days but they are weeks between.