I've had the flu since Sunday. I think it's safe to say when the body gets depressed, the mind suffers equally. I've been battling with depressive and hypomanic cycling all week. When I feel a bit better, my brain gets over-excited and triggers mental mayhem which exhausts me again triggering the depression... lather, rinse, repeat every couple hours. I was cycling rapidly before, but it's worse now. Just increased Lamictal from 100 to 150mg 3 weeks ago. It helped for the first couple weeks of stupid, but now doesn't seem effective. Today, the agitation and fear and anger with myself is unbearable. Being away from work has taken most of the positive interaction away this week, leaving only the feeling of failing others and having no control over it.

This is my first post. Thank you all for being around.