I'm finally understanding my current situation. I am learning. I am still young. I am figuring out life and the purpose of it so no wonder I feel the emotions I did. I felt lost- frustrated, stressed, sad boys didn't like me, sad I wasn't a certain way or looked a certain way. I now understand the reactions I have to things. I am growing up. I feel like I am more logical and more stronger. I feel like a new person. I feel like I am headed in the right direction... Which is forward. I no longer feel so horrible about myself because it was as if it were a wart on my body filled with insecurities/sadness/low self esteem/comparing myself to others/not seeing that beauty I have in myself & that wart is vanished. I know I am beautiful. (This I could never say years ago) and I believe I am my own person. UNIQUE may I add. With my own unique beauty which may not be the beauty standards of today but that doesn't make me not beautiful in my eyes.
I am just as important as someone else and my feelings are just as important.
I'm starting to not be so easily upset over things and starting to see that this is the start to my adulthood. I am growing, coping, shaping myself, learning, understanding life, etc. It's a slow process but now I know that so I can be more patient with my progress.
Yay [emoji4]