you will have to look at the reality of the situation. there is not much that can be done to change a persons personality. you talk about how desperately you want a job in a highly competitive industry but are only working 1 day out of 10 to get there. do your research and see if this method is going to work. I doubt it will. your title of achieving constant motivation is not possible either. it is ok to sleep in now and then and take breaks. research and find out what it does take to break into the industry. then set your goals. you know from your history that you can work hard, you did it for a year. plan our your goal. youtube goal setting for the appropriate way to set goals and devise a realistic plan. not the 24/7 work, but one that allows for some sleeping in and entertainment. you don't want to set yourself up for failure. and then forge ahead.