I can't afford a real t. It's hard enough paying the $5/session with this one. Established t's don't go below $45... it sucks. It's so triggering living here... I know it's probably a bad idea to go without t while I'm still here, but I can't emotionally afford this anymore (and i can't financially afford someone more reliable)... whatever. I was only supposed to be with this t for 6 weeks and then I wad supposed to move. But the move keeps getting put off, so... whatever. I should know better by now.