I'm sorry to hear your worries and anxiety are so severe. I took klonopin for 13 years and thought I couldn't live without it. But my pdoc wanted me off it and at the hospital I go they were very suspicious of prescribing benzos because of their potential recreational use. So, Buspar it is!! I love it. It has a weird common side effect, about 30 minutes after taking it you can get this weird buzz in your head, I've heard it referred to as a "brain buzz." However, it goes away pretty quickly and the beneficial effects of Buspar are well worth it to me. Keep us posted!