Thats exactly what I went through in less than 2 and a half years, now my 3 t. Its an aweful feeling, to have to build up a relationship and trust again, you can do it though, its just exhausting, im not gonna sugar coat it for you, and yes you feel like just giving up. for what its worth, I just kept trying , I am still in the therapy game, not knowing one minute to the next because I am not in private therapy. my t has change my schedule due to several t leaving the clinic, so yes I am insecure, but sticking it out. Dont give up.