She said she's leaving the agency, though did not say when. She reiterated that they normally only see clients for 3 months then move them along (though in the paperwork it said they review progress at 12 weeks, not that they move people on)... she asked more than one time how much more I had expected to stay there "a month? More? Less?"... I couldn't give her an answer. Honestly, I would like support til I move (preferably from one person so I don't have to keep learning to trust over and over again). Since I don't know when I'm moving, that leaves things pretty open-ended. I know that's not what she is looking for...
I know a t relationship isn't meant to be forever. I know even t's that are established may end up having something come up to necessitate termination... but it still sucks.
It's like the lyrics to that three days grace song "let you down"...
Trust me
I’ll be there when you need me
You’ll be safe here
When you finally trust me
Finally believe in me

I will let you down
I’ll let you down, I’ll
When you finally trust me
Finally believe in me

I wish it didn't matter so much to have someone to trust. I wish it didn't matter so much to have a safe place to reach out to when everything gets overwhelming... I think I'm just defective being so needy. Need to go back to having walls miles high and keeping everything self-sufficient. As much as I hate to admit it, mom was right: you can never rely on anyone else because they will always let you down. What's the point? Couldn't rely on anything except people not being there when I needed them growing up, why would it change as an adult?