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I'm having trouble adjusting back to life in the outside. I really want to cut myself because I'm so embarrassed by going back IP and doing ECT. I know it's nothing to be ashamed of but I just can't stand it. This was my 18th hospitalization. How pathetic is that! I just want this nightmare to be over. But I'm only 27.
I don't know if the ECT will do the trick this time. How long, if any time at all, I will get away from this. I just want to be a functional adult. I don't know what I'm doing wrong.
Sigh....I just have to keep telling myself it will be worth it in the end, that this WILL work.
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Of course it is happening inside your head. But why on earth should that mean that it is not real?
-Albus Dumbledore
That’s life. If nothing else, that is life. It’s real. Sometimes it
f—-ing hurts. But it’s sort of all we have.
-Garden State
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