I'm sorry, ThisWayOut It sounds like the system you can afford is pretty much broken. There's nothing you can do about that and so not your fault. I'm annoyed for you that your T kept asking you how long you were expecting therapy to go on because she should've just owned up to the fact that she is leaving and told you when, no? Anyways, have you tried support groups? I've found some comfort in 12-step groups because they are free (virtually), I know they are always there, I can speak my whole mind/heart during my share and no one gives me advice, and overall I feel a tiny bit less alone than before. Plus, it helps me to feel less reliant on my T....not that it's wrong to be reliant or anything....just a thought. I'm sorry you're going through this