I'm struggling today. Feeling unenthused, down, these darker shorter days are starting to get to me. This evening I let the kids push my buttons and I have rage. Got myself away from them so I can calm down. Argh. I wish my ADs could be higher again but pdoc seems to think me having rage can be because of my ADs and my mood stabilizer not being high enough. If the abilify is higher I feel excruciatingly bored and flat. Do I need to pathologize everything? Why can't a reaction just be a normal reaction? Well I have a mood disorder, that's why. Sometimes it's hard to know what's normal and what's not. I hate having bad moods though, they can be quite painful. Thanks for listening.