Can you IMAGINE!! It had been 1 year and 7 months since I watched myself bleed...I had a relapse last week. It was ugly. Not cool. So as of now, it's been 6 days and I'm feeling rather good about my recovery process, even with that relapse. I'm still kinda hating on myself for doing it and I'll think it about it at various times during the day. However, in the past when I've hurt myself and later thought about it. I would think about what a big, fat failure I was and constantly think about doing it again. It feels good to not feel that way. I'll take the relapse with a grain of salt and take each moment at a time, turning into each day, each month, each year.