Sorry to say from what I am reading, you seem to be having trouble standing up for your self. Perhaps an advocate would help you. No one can make you do crap unless you are in the hospital involuntary. If she gets mad, take someone with. I would imagine she is busy, but you are a person and so is she. I am sure she would not want someone treating her bad. Starting and stopping meds is somewhat synomonous with BP. I am sorry , we all get tired at times of taking things. That is not saying I promote or even agree with not taking the meds. Just is. Hope you can find some support.